Thank you very much for your support. I also consider myself as a very strong person and I believe that it was worthy all the effort and maybe with time passing I'll be eager enough to have another baby with my family's support and love. I didn't think of counselling for helping but probably will in the next future.
I wish you all the best in the healing process. Allow yourself time, be kind to yourself and surround yourself with supportive friends and family - you have been through a traumatic experience and need time to recover.
Please do post back if you have any other questions or just want to share some thoughts about birth.
Thinking of you,
Yes thank you very much for your support, I have indeed a wonderful family and thank you because I know I can always come back for an advice.