My first pregnancy was very difficult and traumatic. As much as possible, I don't want to use the word "traumatic" but it really feels that way. It still makes me sad after more than ten years.

Back then, I was frequently visiting my doctor because I had spotting every now and then. My baby was in his rightful place. We had really not been able to establish what caused the bleeding. Although, every time it happened, my doctor prescribed a medicine that would keep the baby in place. And so to make the long story short, we kept my baby. I gave birth to him under normal vaginal birth at his proper age.

But we lost at the age of five days. He had a congenital disease called ventricular septal defect. Why did this happen? Was it caused by the medicine I took to keep the pregnancy? I know there is nothing more I can do about it. But i would really like to hear better explanations.